Life is a tapestry woven with threads of trials, triumphs, and moments of divine intervention. My journey, like many, has been marked by challenges and victories. But it was from pain to purpose that I discovered a deeper sense of fulfillment and strength.
From a young age, I found joy in crafting, creating beaded jewelry at just ten years old. This passion for creativity guided me through various phases of my life, including modeling and founding Calico Promotions in 2008. Traveling to New York, NY for the final audition for Rip the Runway, to being nominated for Industry Executive of the Year for the Southern Entertainment Awards, I have lived so many lives in my 43 years on this earth.
My hair was drastically falling out. It felt as though I was losing a vital piece of myself—a symbol of my identity and femininity. In the midst of this personal storm, I found solace in gardening. Tending to the earth and nurturing plants allowed me to cultivate a sense of peace and purpose. It was in the quiet moments spent with nature that I began to reconnect with God. It was the revelation that - I can do everything perfectly and by the book, yet if God doesn't bless it, it won't grow.
I began to realize how lost I had become. After years of reproductive-related battles and lack of accurate diagnoses from numerous gynecologists, in February 2021 I had a hysterectomy that included the removal of my uterus, cervix, and fallopian tubes. Only 30 days after the surgery, the pain I had known too well returned. In July 2021, two weeks before my 40th birthday, I had surgery to remove my ovaries, as they had developed complex cysts. I believed I was a victim to circumstance. The pathology report showed endometriosis, uterine fibroids, endometrial polyps, and complex hyperplasia with atypia (precancerous condition of the uterus). When I was able to finally see the blessing in this post-surgery diagnosis, I became a survivor. I still have my moments because I wanted children so dearly, yet God has made my purpose clear. Today I am thriving and hope to encourage other women to understand the Comforter is with you. Through His grace and mercy, I discovered the unique beauty that God sees in me.
These experiences underscore the importance of raising awareness and advocating for better healthcare outcomes for Black women. We know our body better than anyone. Our voice deserves to be heard. These are the silent battles many Black women face. Endometriosis is a condition that can cause severe pain and is often misdiagnosed, particularly in Black women. Statistics indicate that up to 40% of Black women with endometriosis are misdiagnosed, which can lead to significant delays in treatment and, in some cases, infertility (Johnson, 2021). Many Black women end up requiring a hysterectomy earlier in life as a result, which can have a profound psychological impact. Black Women's Health Matters.
Relocating from North Carolina to Colorado Springs in 2021 marked a new chapter, both personally and professionally. This move allowed me to broaden my vision for The Calico Boutique, offering unique Christian clothing and accessories while embracing a holistic approach with Calico Naturals. No longer was I meant to blend in or seek validation from the world. Navigating these challenges, I found solace in my faith, leading to my baptism in December 2023—a reaffirmation of my commitment to walk with Christ. My health journey with fibromyalgia has also been a significant part of my story. It taught me resilience and the importance of self-care. Throughout these experiences, I've learned that setbacks are not failures but stepping stones to greater understanding and purpose. Each trial has strengthened my resolve to inspire others to find their own path in faith and purpose. My purpose is clear: to be who He created me to be and honor Him in all my ways.
In embracing this divine perspective, I realized that my journey, with all its trials and triumphs, was a testament to the unseen beauty that He saw all along. If you're feeling lost or unseen, know that His love and purpose for you are ever-present, waiting to be discovered. Walk in His grace. Psalm 139:1214 (NKJV) states, "I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well." I invite you to join me in exploring your vision of beauty and purpose. Follow along as we navigate this journey together, finding strength in faith and community.
Through it all, I have found peace and purpose in Christ, who has shown me that even through loss, His love remains unwavering.
References:
Johnson, L. (2021). Endometriosis and the Misdiagnosis Crisis in Black Women. Women's Health Review.
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